Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Hard Choices



I have been avoiding writing this post for awhile now as is not an easy one.....

A few weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night with a heart wrenching realization.......it might not be the right time to get my Flatcoat puppy after all :(   I couldn't fall asleep after that wondering why that thought entered my head.

My heart was all of a sudden telling me that I needed to be more available for Tate, and a puppy would take time away from him.  I am not sure why all of a sudden my mind went in this direction, but it did.  I talked with a few of my close friends & told them what I was thinking.   I talked to Liz almost immediately to tell her how I was feeling as well.  I didn't want to prolong it.  It was one of the most difficult things I've had to do.

Then within days of my decision, Tate became ill, it was like a sign that I had made the right choice.  I had many days of tears, but when it came right down to it I knew I had done the right thing for now.  Tate deserves no less.  

I continue to visit with the puppies,  I have a favourite which makes it harder, but at the same time I feel a connection with these puppies so I enjoy my visits so much!

I have no doubt I will have my puppy one day so I am doing better now.  Hopefully I can help with socializing & maybe have some weekend play dates at my house with a puppy :)

15 comments:

Squishy said...

You will do the right thing. And there will be more puppies to choose from. I know how you feel on wanting to spend time with Tate. Harder for me who has 6 and planning a breeding. No matter what, it will take time from my dogs who range in age from 10 years to 2 years. I support you in whatever you decide and if it turns out you end up with one of these, I cannot wait to meet the little guy. And since I SUCK at getting the PASSPORT I may be so excited to meet the next little guy. I love you Jolene. Give Taters a big hug and kiss for me from his most favorite admirer. And I hope there are no typos in this comment for I drinketh!!!!

Anonymous said...

I know it was a tough decision Jo. But as we talked about I too think that it is the right choice for now. Your puppy will come, and it will be perfect. <3

amanda

onecollie said...

lol! you do suck at getting your passport!! but I forgive you and know you will make it here when the time is right :)
xoxo

Hydro Blogger said...

Sounds like the right decision.

For so long you only wanted a Cava puppy, I was surprised when you talked about getting a Kona pup instead.

Best to get a pup when you're really sure it's what you want, and not just because there happens to be a litter (as fantastic as KonaxBoy puppies will be!).

Then you can also decide if you *really* want a flatcoat. I could lend you Cedar if you like lol!

onecollie said...

thanks for supporting me Amanda, I have the best friends!
and you're so right, my puppy will be perfect when the time is right :)

onecollie said...

there is no doubt in my mind that I want a Flatcoat, the time does have to be right though, I think Cedar is fantastic! although she may have proved to be too much for this old girl had she been mine lol!

Rebecca Epperly said...

You'll know when the time is right. And if you're feeling it isn't the right time then I say its probably not. And when you do get that puppy (because you will) it'll be great and so worth that wait.
~Rebecca

WigglyZack said...

It must be a very hard choice. There will always be other puppies but there won't be another Tate. You will make the right decision for sure.

Tammy Taylor said...

Been a long time since I heard (read??) someone be so unselfish - Tate is 1 lucky pup! With such a big heart; there will be lots of puppy visits now!

Dianne SS said...

I know how hard coming to this decision is for you. However you will never regret focusing your time and energies on Tate--and also Kort. That is a lovely litter of puppies out at Blazingstar and being able to watch them grow is a special gift for you to enjoy even if you don't get one of them this time around. We don't know what the future has in store for us--we can make plans and have hopes and dreams and we can see them dashed. Yet all of a sudden a dream that once was thought impossible becomes not only possible but reality (my personal recent example of this is inheriting the family farm after all). As I have said before, I'm there for you no matter what. Love you Jolene XOXO

onecollie said...

thank you Tammy :)

onecollie said...

so true Dianne, thank you for your support
love you too :)
xoxo

onecollie said...

well put Lisa, there will never be another Tate but there will always be puppies, thank you :)

KEY WEST COLLIES said...

Tough decision, but do what you think is right. That is what matters most.

Essex & Sherman

Judy said...

I am sorry to see that "Lync" will not be joining your family. A FC puppy requires a committment of time, energy, and attention...../and a large sense of humor. its good that you realised that you are unable to provide that at ths time.