Group

Since I have been having such a tough time with the death of my mom I have decided to join a bereavement group.  We meet on Tuesday nights and it goes for 2 hours.  Last night was my second class and I find it very helpful to be able to talk about mom and get what I need by having people listen and validate my feelings. 
I can cry if needed, and it doesn't feel dumb, or like I'm being foolish. 
I can't talk about who is in the group but it is a nice small group of just the 4 of us.  I can tell you I am not the oldest which really surprised me! 
The room is cozy with comfy chairs and nice smells from oils they have going in an infuser.  There are 2 instructors, I guess that's what they are called, they help keep the flow going so there is always something to discuss.  I wouldn't think I was the kind of person that would get something out of the group but I am and I'm glad I signed up for it . I am already looking forward to my next session.

Tracking videos

Got my camcorder working finally so have a couple of tracking videos to post

This is Kort, he had 2 turns and is defiantly ready for longer tracks with more turns.....


This is Lync, he is doing awesome for just starting his tracking career.....
 I am so proud of both of them and I am sooo loving tracking again!

Tracking

I've been tracking with Kort for a month, and just started Lync, going out this morning , there is a light frost on the ground which is perfect for laying a track, video to follow :)

Wouldnt you know it but my video camera had issues yesterday, I was so disappointed as I had someone willing to video for me to, we used her i phone but I was unable to download all of the track :(

For Kort I did a track with 3 corners, I used food on the corner and he nailed each one, then I use food drops of about every 10 steps otherwise.  I am thinking of stopping the food but using more articles as his tracking is stop and start and circling for the food, not just straight ahead pulling, I'm ready to roll for next time and hopefully the camera issues will be resolved.  Korts track aged for an hour before I actually ran it so he was a good boy!

For Lync I just did a straight track with food in every step for about the first 10 , then after that about every 3rd, this is his 2nd ever track only and his tail wagged the entire time, I think he enjoys this !! Lyncs track was 50 steps and aged for 40 minutes so I was very pleased with how he handled his too!

Ash at 9 months

pictured at 8.5 months

Ash is quickly maturing into a nice boy.  He has a gorgeous head and muzzle, his ears are doing well but I still keep them glued to insure they stay that way.  He has a solid topline, a lovely long neck, and is balanced in front and rear.  I am taking him to two shows the beginning of November, one being our local show that we have just once a year.  It is also a Collie/Sheltie booster so that will be extra fun.!  He has a solid temperament but this will be the first time I have showed him indoors, I am expecting him to be quite excited so I better get to the shows early so he has time to settle down and relax.  It is so much fun having a puppy to show again! 

Home

I arrived home from Edmonton at 5 pm last night, I have 3 huge boxes of stuff from my mom's house sitting here, I dont wasnt to go through them yet,  It is just so painful, my heart hurts so bad.  Everything I get smells like her, I hope we are doing the right thing, selling her house I mean, but what else were we to do? It make me think of one day when I pass away, people going through my things, giving them away, dividing everything up, it makes me ill to think about it. I try to keep as little as possible so it wont be the job that we are having to go through with moms things.
I know mom is in a better place free from pain, but I am selfish and want her back, I want to call her up and say Happy Thanksgiving.

My grief counseling starts on Oct 20th, to my surprise it is a group of all older people, I thought I would be the oldest, apparently not.  I guess you are never too old to grieve for your mom :(