Wow, I am exhausted, mentally & physically. I got up at 4:30 this morning in order to drive to Medicine Hat to compete in their agility trial.
The first course of the day was Starter's Standard with Kort. He did awesome, but took an off course, which in this case means he took a jump instead of the table. There are no mistakes in AAC agility, even at the Starters level, so he NQ'd. It was totally my fault, not only did I not notice this potential "trap", but I held my supporting arm up too long which actually made him take the jump. I won't make that mistake again.
Last year at the May Medicine Hat trial Kort started refusing to down on the table. I have no idea why as he had always done it perfectly. It was also a problem for us at the Oct. Training Troop trial, so much so that he would go over time as it took me so long to get him to down.
We went back to class where Amanda & Sarah helped me with some games to build value back up for the table. I have to tell you, when he dropped on that table this morning I just wanted to squish him I was soooo proud !!! He also aced his 12 weave poles !!
Next up was Snooker, I don't really understand Snooker, I have to admit :(
Amanda & Judy helped me to figure out a path to take. First up was Kort, he was amazing!! Right at the end I had him take a jump I shouldn't have, so we got the whistle. We got a Q anyway, & a 1st place in class, as he did get enough points, but I was so annoyed at myself as he was having such a great run! Next was Tate's turn. This was the only class I entered him in today. He was in 16" Veteran's. He had so much fun , galloping around, he was getting a bit tired as he had to do a tunnel 3 times in a row, he does not like the tunnels very much. Anyway, on the 2nd last obstacle I tried to get him to take the jump at too sharp of an angle which caused him to knock the bar, so he NQ'd :(
I came out of the ring upset, I have NEVER been able to hide my feelings. I look annoyed, then I get annoyed that I look annoyed! I have worked very hard on trying to change my negative attitude. today I just could not get it under control, I cried. I was mad at myself for being overweight & not being able to run quickly, or handle better. It does not help for people to tell me that it is not my fault, when I get like this I need to hide away until I can get a grip. I belong to the best agility club ever!!! Everyone supports each & they are right there to offer words of encouragement. The problem with that is I am not ready at first to hear "great run!" or "it's not your fault" I need to be alone , calm down & focus. So what ends up happening is that I snap at the people I care about, my team mates :(
I worry that I look annoyed at my dogs, when I really am annoyed with myself. Anyway, it's all I thought about on the way home today, should I quit competitive sports with my dogs? Seriously, I have thought about it before, I do not like myself when I get so down. I'm not quitting though, my dogs enjoy it too much, but I need to figure out something that I can do when I get like this.
Amanda ended up making me laugh however. I said if I could just loose weight I'd be able to run better with my dogs.....Amanda said, "but you'd still be old" hahahahahahaha! friggin funny ! Yes Amanda, you are right on that one!
Ok, enough wallowing in self pity....next up was Jumpers. Kort still had no Jumpers Q's, at times it was my fault, like missing half of the course , sometimes it was his fault, like gawking outside the ring & missing a jump....but that is all over! Kort Q'd yahooooooy!!!! He was the only Starters dog to Q, I am very proud of my Korty!
Well thanks for reading this incredibly long post, and thank you to all my GO!DOG!GO! team mates & instructors, you guys rock!!!!!!!!!!!!